The Blog is Back

When Josh and I began this blog, the main intent was to serve as a way to communicate to our family and friends. We soon realized that a quick phone call was by far the more efficient way to communicate about the comings and goings of our lives. Looking back on it now, the idea that we were going to create a blog that merely tracked our day to day lives is really such a romantic little dream. We so naively believed that our lives in suburbia were going to be interesting enough to chronicle in a blog. So rather than fruitlessly attempt to recreate our old blog, I return to this project with a new approach. Allow me to explain.

Part of the reason that this blog has remained void of entries is that this past year has been a year of intense introspection for both of us. I find myself 25, recently married, gainfully employed, living in a 4 bedroom house in a wealthy suburb and completely unsatisfied with this status. While this list may look like an impressive collection of accomplishments it is merely a cover for an existence that is numb at its core. I waste the majority of my energy and enthusiasm for an employer who is only too willing to exploit it. My reward is a regular cycle of buying things I don't need, decorating my too large house and drinking too much. I have entered the hell that almost all adults face-boredome. I spend half of my time being lazy and the other half of my time trying to figure out a way to correct my newly found bad habits. I have a seemingly endless cycle of creating an elaborate plan to rectify the situation and then promptly abandoning that well crafted plan 24 hours later. My introspective tendencies have created zero results and I find myself at the end of the year empty handed and feeling even more pathetic.

If you're expecting me to dazzle you with my keen insights into my new found reason for being, I am sad to say you will be sorely disappointed. My only epiphany after a year of introspection is that I must break my cycle of actionless introspection and begin doing the things I want to do (doing being the operative word). It sounds simple but it took me over a year of anxiety to reach that conclusion and probably at least another few months to do anything about it. In fact, I was going to post this blog entry next weekend until Josh called my bluff and said there was no reason that I shouldn't write the post tonight.

So, what does writing a blog have anything to do with my desire to reignite my passion for life? Good question. I am hoping that this blog will serve as a forcing function to explore and elaborate on ideas, record progress towards my goals and create a space that is entirely my own. I am not expecting anyone outside of my grandma to actually read this. This blog is an entirely selfish exercise designed to force me to come up with something interesting to say. Hopefully, one day soon, my travels, ideas, arguments, observations, and accomplishments will actually be something that someone outside of my immediate circle will find relevant or interesting. Until then, I guess this blog will just be our little secret.